2 days 3 hours 19 minutes

this is a stream of conciousness expiriment. I'm just going to try to write, unfiltered, what comes to my mind.

2 days 3 hours 18 minutes

i get paid on the 1st of august. i keep a browser tab open to a countdown timer until that date. why? because i love spending money. it's a coping skill. lol. i pay my bills and then i buy stuff then i kill time until i get more money. is that greed? possibly.

2 days 3 hours 16 minutes

is greed a bad thing? i think that depends. i don't really buy into things falling neatly into categories like good and bad, at least not conciously. i really, honestly, believe that every single person is doing the only thing that they can do. we have things like our history and our genetics and our current environment to thank for every choice we make, every action we take (rhyme).

2 days 3 hours 11 minutes

greed. bad? no, nothing is bad, nothing is good. what is it then? is it morally reprehensible, something that should be corrected? that depends, i think. it depends on ones own actions in getting the things or money that they covet.

2 days 3 hours 10 minutes

i will use myself as an example. i love money. why? because money is the vehicle to getting the things that i want. why do i want them, they give me pleasure. currently i'm looking forward to getting a ps3. what will i do to get the money that i want to buy the things that i covet? i will earn it, or be given it. what wont i do? i won't hurt anyone or anything to get it. i won't do things that violate my artistic integrity like work for commission or do the kinds of art that i don't enjoy doing.

2 days 3 hours 6 minutes

why is working for comission against my artistic integrity? because, i believe that it is motivated by the wrong things and that art, for it to really be true to the artist has to come from a place of inspiration.

2 days 3 hours 5 minutes

what else is against my artistic integrity? well, doing stuff that i don't enjoy or find worthy of my time and investment.

2 days 3 hours 3 minutes

well that produced a lot more than i was expecting, lol. it was interesting but now i think it's over.

2 days 3 hours 2 minutes

the views and opinion expressed in this post reflect only the things that were passing through my head at the moment i wrote them. they don't mean shit. =P